lethargy...

the last few weeks have somehow been exceptionally tiring. I would reach back home after each day and feel incredibly exhausted. and come the weekend, all i seek is to spend a quiet time recuperating. my social life is at an all time low, I haven't been out partying or meeting people in the last 6 weeks.

On the top side, I've been on top of my game each day in the hospital. Pwning others in bedside tutorials and answering most questions from consultants correctly during the clinics. Something in this formula seems to be going right at this point; while it's not the best balance as noted from my insignificant social life, I feel my knowledge and competence as a medical student has developed quite tremendously and each day i feel more confident about my own abilities. rheumatology has been one field of Medicine that I have been able to keep my interest in (also cos i've been quite good at it), other aspects of medicine have just been plain boring, the only other exception being Gastroenterology. Neurology is coming up soon, so hope that goes well. i just hope I can keep the faith and continue til the end of the year without burning out.

Two books I've read recently, "gifted hands" by Ben Carson and "Hot lights, Cold steel" by Michael Collins. both stories about the life and experiences of surgical training, which have been discouraging yet at the same time truly inspiring. It's amazing how these doctors can achieve so much. Being in medical school seems like such a huge task already but yet they've far exceeded their own expectations. I hope to be like that one day, even if it means 90% work and 10% play.